Thursday, June 21, 2007

Gath at KLCC~*

Sebagai memenuhi permintaan, ini adalah entry untuk gathering kami di KLCC tempohari. Gathering ni melibatkan Kak Ila, Hazlyn, Wawa, Zaki & of course, me~! ;D
Banyak dah cerita kat blog diorg pasal gathering ni, so i guess i just present you guys some pictures. Sorry lambat sikit bukak cerita sebab gambar ni baru dapat upload kat komp ni ha~ hehehe~ ;D

Ini adalah mastermind kepada gathering kami. Kena letak muka dia dulu sebab dia big boss. Dah pernah jumpa Kak Ila, so takde masalah la nak get along dgn akak sorg ni. hehehe~ ;)
I realize i takde gmbr2 Hasya & Saymel~ dlm byk2 kamera itu hari, motif lah gmbr si kecik berdua tu tak tertgkp dlm henset saya? haihhhh~~

Me & the venue,KLCC....

Hazlyn - Gadis pendiam ni tapi kalau kenal, boleh tahan la dgr dia asik gelak2 je. I like this pic the best sebab matching je.. hikhikhikhik~

Ni Zaki. Yaaaa.. boleh tahan lah ceria, i was expecting him to be more talkative than me but seems like he is a gentleman and kind at heart~ [aku dah tolong promo kau dlm blog ni~ hehehe~] and yeah.. i was more talkative than him~ motif ok Zaki? walhal dlm blog kau bykkkkk je ckp~! ;p

First time jumpa Wawa ni. Girl in black makes her look unik that day... Pun asik gelak2 je biler aku ckp apa2. Motif la korg?

Ini lah kami tgkp gambar sebelum kami dipreeeeeeeeeeeeet dek mak guard kat situ sebab terlebih umur naik jongkang jongkit tu~ hehehehe~
So, biler nak buat gathering lagi nih? ;D

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Happy Father's Day~*

This month is a month of Father's Day. So just maybe i wud like to dedicate one special entry for him so that the world knew that i always have him in mind....

My dad works in Tganu. KUSTEM. Mengajar sikit2. Meetings. Travel sana sini. Attending seminar and competitions for his inventions and reseach. The last time, his project on Ikan Keli dibuat ala2 mcm sardin rich in Omega 3 won gold medal in Science & Technology Exhibition last month in KLCC. Congrats~! Now you see why i always look up high on you making you as one of my inspiration.

People say, he's a quiet man but my frenz said he's 'mesra alam'. [He met my frenz the time he visited me when he was appointed as one of the guest for konvo in UTM] Maybe he's the kind that can get along well with students. I never actually knew anyone of his students. Sebab jauh kot. Kat Terengganu.

He's a hardworking man. I can tell you he is a workaholic. And his success was because of his high determination, hardworking & commitment towards his work.[if this is in your gen, why isnt it working on me~?] Its not a wonder when he has been a dean for over 6 years in the faculty of Agrotechnology[does people know how to give you any pencen?]. He has a new hobby now... scuba-diving~! [I'm totally jeles with your new hobby ni you know?] but mainly because he has to handle a big project in Pulau Bidong, so he has no choice but to scuba-dive in order to understand the nature and everything that is very much related to his project. I promise one day i'm gonna scuba-dive there!

He likes to travel. He's used to drive from north to south. I remember when he came to Teluk Intan to pick me up and balik kampung ikut jalan Jeli. Quite far but i enjoyed the journey becoz it was just the 2 of us. And i kept on rewinding the album of MLTR[Micheal Learns to Rock] over and over again. We didnt converse much but that was one of the best journey i had with my him. Some people say silence can be the best conversation and i guess that's what i had with my dad. At the peak point of Jeli [near the border of Thailand-Malaysia], we stopped. I remember it was cold becoz it was in the peak of the mountain. Seeing me cold, he just explain, that we are at the peak in tanjung titiwangsa a.k.a the tulang belakang semenanjung Malaysia that cross till negeri Pahang. [is it? i forgot la...] Remembering the Geography lessons that time, i just nodded and smile. He gave me his coat and ask me to join his journey thru the woods on the peak.

It wasn't far till we stopped at one point, i watched as he plucked one of the grass there. It was obvoiusly too hard to find,seems like looking for a needle among the grass. But he pulled it out and ask me to smell its root. It smells like minyak angin cap kapak. He explained that this grass is very special because it is only found in tropical country like malaysia and that peak has the best of its kind. It can be made as a medicine by boiling its roots in a hot water and the water can be made to heal wounds or bruises. I was amazed. Just by plucking those grass, he simply explained everything. That time, i totally wonder how the heck he could find the exact grass and knew everything about it? And trust me dad, that was the time when u really inspire me of what i wanna become now.

So i would like to wish you a Happy Father's Day and thanks for all those lessons that a father could ever give to his daughter. Deep down, you'll always be my inspiration. I know i never actually express this but i would like to say that....

PS-The Aussies said he looks like Dr. Mahathir. Siap tgkp2 gmbr sebab ingtkan prime minister Malaysia walupun dah berkali2 ckp he's not and i was like hello? What does a PM do in the middle of Melbourne with no bodyguards around? Duhh~~

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Story of a pain~*

People ask me, how does it feel to feel hurt? Love hurts. And let me tell you a story about hurt and pain…

One day, you found love. You thought everything went nice. So nice that you tend to do stuffs that you don’t usually do with your friends. Sms everyday. Calling just to ask where you are. How you’re doing. Just wanna hear his/her voice.This is what they say that love is blind. For certain people, it sounds blind. Or maybe to most people, sounds blind. Whatever lah.

Then one day, he/she call it off. Cause they realize, its just not right. He/she trying to sound nice, trying to make you understand their right/nice intention. But somehow, you realize its just not easy. It may be easy for them but its just not easy for you. Cause its all in the sudden. Then you realize how stupid you are. How fool you have been for all these while. And how blind you were all these while. Then for no apparent reason, you just get sad... and mad. And for me, this is where you can call love is blind..

So here’s the part of pain. You’ll feel your chest so heavy. It may go to the stage of macam susah nak bernafas, depends on how much love that you’re giving up. Then dah sakit dada, you get dizzy. Kepala sakit. Letak kepala kat bantal, lagi lah sakit. So you just tend to sit down je. Setiap kali tutup mata, all the sweet memories you gain came replaying on your mind. Especially the part where he promises not to leave you no matter what happen. Well, that is pain. So you cannot shut your eyes. But still, your chest feels so much pain, you hardly breath with your dizzy head. Then this is the part where your tears came rolling down. Like a waterfall. That is pain.

So during that time, your trust slowly fade away. You feel like you dont want to have any contact with that person. Not only him/her,you don’t want to make any contact with any guy/girls anymore. Hatred came rushing in as you struggle to keep your head up straight. Of course, don’t expect to have any rasional thinking during this time. Anger is taking over your heart, so what ever you have in mind is just not rasional cause it is driven by the hatred of your heart. That is pain.

The best thing to do at this time is to just stand up, go the kitchen and get your self a drink of plain water [helps to sooth your face and esak2 tangisan tuh] and then go wash your face and take a wudu’. Then pergilah mengadap Dia. Cukup lah solat 2 rakaat, just to get that peace in your heart. After that, habis je solat, tunduk lah menangis dpn Dia. Menangis lah puas2. Mengadu lah dgn Dia. Lepaskan lah segala sakit dada tu kat Dia. Mintak ampun byk2. Sebab biler sujud tu kan, pening kepala tuh boleh hilang. Boleh sedar lah kita ni mmg manusia lemah giler. Baru sorang je yang kecewakan kita, sakitkan kita, dah terasa sakit hati macam pedang tusuk2 kat dada kita. Sebab masa tu lah sedar… betapa bodoh lah kita ni. That is pain.

After that, kita mungkin boleh pura2 mcm takde pape. Dgn org lain kita boleh act normal walupun kita tak pandai berlakon dan org lain nampak je ada sumthing wrong dgn kita, but at least takde apa2 yg ditimbulkan depan kita, then that wud be ok. We can still live normal life and everybody is ok with us. But deep down inside, it is hurting us.

During nights before going to bed, those memories came replaying in your mind. It hurts but you have no choice but to sleep with it. Jangan terkejut when you sleep with your tears rolling down. And you can’t stop it cause during days, you keep all those deep inside. The pain grew and it burst at nite, before going to bed. And it kept repeating nite after nite….. till the pain became less but that need hell lot of time. And yeah… time heals. But the deeper your love, more time is needed to heal it. And the process of healing? Yeah.. it hurts.. painfully hurts.

But there is still the good part of being hurt… you don’t tend to eat too much, which is good cause you can control the amount you eat and eat biler rasa lapar and stop eating sebelum kenyang. Makan ala kadar, which is digalakkan. You loose al the bad-bad fat in your body and gain better figure. You don’t have to bother to go on a diet cause you have the capability to lose 10kg in 1 ½ month. Great huh~? Plus, you tend to work harder to forget all your pain. For those with hard determine heart [org degil la~] selalunye akn make themselves busy sebab refuse to think about those sorrows. Work harder, play harder and pray harder, trust me, you’ll get paid for that. But again, your pain will burst out at nite.. when people are not around… That hurts, painfully...

Another bright side is, you get to think wiser and mature. What went wrong and what is wrong and right. You tend to improve yourself to be a better person and try not to look back [eventho sumtimes you do some peeking] but that wont stop you from moving forward.[this is the part where you get your head back straight and have that rasional kinda thinking cause you've cooled down] You become a stronger person with higher self-esteem and strong determination at heart. Its not easy to build this kind of personailty but pain does it all. Some people seek for revenge but in the end, you'll just realize that revenge only hurts you more. Dont bother to do anything for that person cause He/she doesnt even deserve your revenge.

Well,its just story of hurt and pain. By love. But love is just so wonderful and most people think that its worth taking the risk. I’m not trying to scare ya' all but love is universal. It depends on the individual how to interpret it and how you guide it. Love can be the most beautiful thing in the world but many of us misunderstood it. That what makes love hurts…. And guess I’m just one of them…

I’m dedicating this song... to you…

Not ready to make nice
Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I’m not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I’m still waiting
I’m through with doubt
There’s nothing left for me to figure out
I’ve paid a price
And I’ll keep paying
I’m not ready to make nice
I’m not ready to back down
I’m still mad as hell and
I don’t have time to go round and round and round
It’s too late to make it right
I probably wouldn’t if I could‘
Cause I’m mad as hell
Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should
I know you said
Can’t you just get over it
It turned my whole world around
And I kind of like it
I made my bed and I sleep like a baby
With no regrets and I don’t mind sayin
It’s a sad sad story when a mother will teach her
Daughter that she ought to hate a perfect stranger
And how in the world can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That they’d write me a letter
Sayin’ that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over
I’m not ready to make nice
I’m not ready to back down
I’m still mad as hell and
I don’t have time to go round and round and round
It’s too late to make it right
I probably wouldn’t if I could
Cause I’m mad as hell
Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should

But hey again... like i said.. its just a story... ;)

Friday, June 01, 2007

Lanun-lanun Karibean~*

Choooppp~!!! Konon nak hibernate tapi godaan lanun2 ni tak boleh nak tolak~ Rasa terancam.. muahahaha~
Dah tgk sejak mula-mula keluar. Part 1, 2 & 3. Love it~! Watak nakal Jack Sparrow and watak innocent brave young William Turner. I like Jack but I love William boleh~? hehehe ;p So, berbaloi lah 3 jam dlm panggung tuh...

Basicly i like the ending but tak puas hati Will ganti Davy Jones, spending 10 years at sea and having only 1 day at shore with his love. Ish... Jauh tu. But thats what you call true love la kan...

Good thing Elizabeth had his heart.... jeles boleh~?

He's trying to think like Jack Sparrow... which is think smart~!

Will's more sincere and pure at heart. But having to think smart like Jack, he's far much better~!

Yup... He's always trying to be extra careful with Jack... You'll never know what Jack's have in mind... Cute eh~? hehehe~ ;p

Somehow, he has faith in Jack too. (plus.. having his own mission to accomplish, he still needs Jack~)

In the end, he's my fave character among all pirates. Sure the hottest pirate on earth~! Pure heart with nasty looks (and smart)~definitely my type. hehe~ =D
So, who's that my william turner~? Ah haa~~ found one~! muahahahaha~ ;p (no kaloi.. its not you.... dah nak kawen tu, siler prepare2 lah ok~ ;p )
p/s- and that also includes micheal scofield~ can't deny him too~ hehehehe~
ok ok ok... back to hibernation~